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Tuesday, March 09, 2004
dear diary,
been so long since i type an entry. i guess no one still knows that im still using this blogger. anyway, what a life i am leading. let''s start shall we??
yesterday, cahya slept at my house. he''s returning to indo in 2 more days. gonna miss him. he''s such a gd guy. and gd looking too. before we sleep, we talk abt this indo girl whom i love. but she had went back already. he kinda advice me. his advice is great. never have i been so ''thinking'' in an advice. although his advice is great, it makes me feel more confuse. abt what should i do with my feelings towards her.
the story is, i love her. but that time, i have wati. she love me too. but doesnt want to interfere with my relationship. i told her you should have interfere in it. then none of my misery with wati will happen. she even told cahya that she love me. cahya didnt tell me. cause he doesnt want to interfere too.
now, im still in contact with her, ema, through phone call, sms and email. waiting for her to reply my mail. i call her once a week. sometimes she sms me. but she doesnt have a hp no. yet. she will tell me when she does.
the problem is, i love her so much. im not interested in any girls out there but her. but i dont know abt her. dont know if she feels what i feel or not. my fear is that one day, she will tell me that she love another guy. and there is nothing i can do abt it. i just pray that we will be together. althought it is gonna be hard.
we''ll just see what god has in store for me and ema.
logged by Ijal at 12:11 AM
